Mei Hong's Hideout.

It is Friday the 13th again.

2012-01-13T09:21:00.001+08:00

This is the third Friday the 13th post I have been posting . Feeling cheesy currently. I don't think anything special will happen today ;)

Someone is going to have his final paper today, so fingers-crossed for him.

This will be a very short post. Today I'm going to tidy up and clean my kl room and living room (where I always sit at there and study only, like nesting). It's so darn dirty but I refuse to clean it during exam time cause I will be very exhausted if I did so and the place will be dirty in no time.

Will be going back at 15th, this Sunday.

Congrats to my sis to be able to get into Ernst and young and will be working very soon! This is equal to a lot of ka-ka-ka-ching flowing into her pocket and materials flowing into mine too cos I know she loves me very much and will make me feel happy. ;D *winks

Okay overall Wish that i can finish the tasks that I had set for myself on this lovely day :
#sweeep living room and the bedroom.
#mopp them like a boss!
#tidy up my papers, notes, exam questions, and table.
#if possible go to my college just to print something (lol am I too free?)
#laundry
#pacck luggagee

That's all I think. And yeah, I really thank to Melina and Cassandra who prepared me some lovely gifts.. I could never expect them. (hahaha I sound so forever alone) therefore really thanks to you guys.. You just made my day. At least something. :)

And those who remember my birthday despite that i had turned off my birthday reminder, thanks a thousand lots too.. During this situation, I know that I receive sincere wishes. :) tq.

This birthday I have people who pop into my room and sing me birthday song with the cake, while I'm having stomach wind pain on the bed, thanks.. I feel touched from the bottom of my heart.

Those who think that my birthday never exist, or don't really care if it exists or not, well, no comment. I'm sure there are a lot of people who think that I'm born in the month of Geeraber (some words that I just crapped it out, which represents the 13th month). It just represents how much am I in people's heart. I don't want much wishes, just those which are sincere.

Mum and dad, thanks for your wishes. That's the most important one on my day. Mum, I'm sure you won't forget the day you drained all your energy just to push this little girl out. And that was your last one :) love you.

I want to turn my cny mood on! Last time during the month of December I very pantang the appearance of cny songs cos I think that they shouldn't appear until Christmas was officially gone!

And the feeling of pantang-ness cannot get off till now. Lol. Have to listen to more and more cny songs.

Xin nian lai lo!!! <3 no more short post :p

Ps: pics taken in times square yesterday.

Downloaded some apps and played with it for an hour! Ahahaha!

Caption pic 1: none other than a normal self-cam lovely pic ;p
Caption pic 2: normal version
Caption pic 3: mask version
Caption pic 4: epic fail version! Uploaded accidentally. Haha.
Caption pic 5: try to make something better but the app don't have something nice! Hahahah. Imma boss!!

Apps: camera360 (this one got so much editing function!) you know I really not used to spend so many times on a photo editor software just to produce a perfect pic out. But this is so many much fun! It makes people appear better. Hohoho.

Instagram : introduced by Melina ;)

Keep trying : for those stupid masks and glasses and teeth and boss mustache!!

Labelbox : obviously, to label.

Have a nice day! :)

Retroistic

2012-01-01T19:15:00.001+08:00

Glance through the Cleo mag and found that The retro looks are coming back in this brand new year.

And now from skinny jeans to bell-bottom again? Hahah.

The fashion keeps going back in time and combines with touch ups from the modern times.

I'm not a fashionista, saw this and imagine that how would it be if I'm with a super red lipstick.

Giggle
Giggle.

Came back from a party at fellow buddy khai giap's house at teluk purai, klang. He had his 21st birthday bash (his cake shape is a key! ) and we went along to celebrate it and also together marked the end of the year 2011.

We were actually having exam from 30th December to 11th January, and many people would think that why will we still go outstation at this crucial moment. Most of the tarcians would have stayed indoor looking at the fireworks outside and looking at their books in front them. Hahah. If I didn't come here, I would be one of them. In the end I feel happy too la that I break my usual custom. Just hope that we can do it this time . :)

Few things happened with this trip:
- first we got sucked at a super crazily crowded ktm station. There are really super lots of person and people are really pushing when we were trying to enter the coach. (almost fell down -.- ) total craziness...

- during the night, after the party and everything, giap's uncle got so drunk and took us to some old areas and told us ghost stories in the middle of the night. 2am like that. Middle of the road. Even asked us to get down from the car and be adventurous with him! Uncle oh uncle. We just squeezed like hell behind him and turned our ears off.

- we got so freaked out and he ended up drove us to port klang .

- road block happened. We were like, wtf! Cos we have 5 people sitting at the backseat and our giap's uncle condition was not too good. And our luck combined for the night, luckily the police didn't stop us.

- went to port klang, looked at the beach at 3am , Lots of Malays were there. Luckily didn't being kacau. One of the Malay guy was shouting like," ah moi, mari datang bersembang! Saya ada basikal ni!" Hahahahahaha I laughed out. XD

- went back at 4am+ after stopping by at a pusat memancing ikan.

- things didn't stop happening. In the middle of the journey back, I was already dozed off and suddenly I woke up realizing that the car's clutch skin was broken. (they called it clutch skin la in Cantonese... I don't know what it is exactly.. And do you spell the car clutch as clutch? Idk! As long as you. Get what I mean! ;D)

- so fellow guys push the car all the way back... I was steering the car inside. Hahaha great me offering help to steer the car. Hahahaha!

- I wanted to capture pics of them pushing the car! Wanted to feature it inside here. But I couldn't get it! Swear that I will get myself a camera soon!!!

- lastly, we slept at 5am in the new year's morning :S

Ps: Giap was so hangover last night. -.- he committed thrice during the journey!!

Last but not least, Bak kut teh is a must and it ended our trip to klang today.

Pictures are all below and I just don't know how to get it up there. Hahaha so please just relate them yourselves...

Happy new year! I believe that I will be counting down to year 2013 . It wil be a revolution instead of a year end, as they say . :)

Pics are horribly messy . :(

Bad is not always bad.

2011-12-28T00:05:00.001+08:00

Feel heavy hearted to come back to this "ghost" place, (translate from Cantonese) cos I'm facing the war in less than 2 days' time

Everytime come back sure have super duper unpleasant feelings and encounters. Therefore I don't like to come back. But I couldn't study at home too. For me, family = holidays. Haha.

I miss them much . Just that this bad place is not this bad too when I saw lovely things here. Although I'm alone I know they are still people who care about me, and I'm greatly grateful on every single soul who does that.

Thanks fei too, for remembering me. :)

And thanks these awesome people for cheering me up. Hope that I can burn the midnight oil thoroughly.

"sometimes I just wanna disappear"
Akibat dpd kakakku who non stop queening when I'm at home.

Ps: Link the photos to the second last paragraph. Using iPod to update this blog and therefore this cacat app can only let photos to appear at the bottom. Bear with me, lovelies :)

Genting highland 2011.

2011-12-22T00:32:00.001+08:00

I went to genting at this crucial moment! I am not sure whether I will screw my final exam or not.. :(

Anyway this considered as a relaxing and pleasant trip. I really should spend more time with my family! Only if I'm valid to enter the casino... More fun! I have the strong feeling that I will be able to strike some winnings and use it on shoppings. ;(

Anyway i still Bought budget clothing that under offer. Hahaha. Everything under rm100. satisfying . I'm gonna look shoes and handbag too if possible. :D I'm greedy.

Full moon dinner is coming! I hope I can handle everything. Sigh. If I stops procrastinating, maybe I could.

Everything reminds me of last semester's exam period. It's the worst. And I got the worst results ever... Hope I can do something to it this time.

Add oil everyone.. :O

piano.

2011-12-03T12:24:00.001+08:00

I notice that my title is getting shorter and simpler these days.

Anyway that's not the point..

Sometimes I've been looking at piano covers at youtube. The youtubers play piano perfectly. Some of them with sheets, some played by ear.

Anyhow, they still manage to play a piece of song without flaws/mistakes.

I hope I can become one of them.

Being an 8 grader does not mean that you can play a piano without fail/mistakes, etc. It still depends on your talent and your passion and your skill and everything. ( does it sounds like I'm giving excuses? )

Anyway, I'm finally getting myself a keyboard after one year ranting about it and yet do nothing. I even wish to post some piano covers too. but wait, I don't even have a camera -...-

I hope that I can brush up my skills.. although I have no idea how can I do it. I can play some simple songs or melodies by ear, but I always use simple accompaniments only. I never know how to play those complex complex complicated songs that are played by the performers. and I can only play pop songs, not those "music" songs. Meaning I can play only songs that are sung by people. If no people sing that song, it will be quite a trouble for me.

Haha. Anyway, nobody is perfect. (I'm giving myself excuse again) I get myself a yamaha DGX-230 keyboard, will get it sometime in next week... It has 76 keys, compared to Casio CTK 6000 which has better features and better price, but 60 keys only. What a disgrace :(

So the Yamaha thing, with the stand and pedal, Rm1700. I know it's expensive... but it's an asset right? I'm going to use it for a long time right? It going to have probable future economic benefit flow into me right? ( tell me yes please. )

Since everytime I go back to Perak I will be in my aunt's house in Ipoh, I rarely touch my piano except during semester break. For those who understand, it really feels good that you can play your favourite songs on piano or any musical instrument. Maybe there are some interest in me, and not everyone, therefore some people feels unreasonable for me to invest on this keyboard that cost so high. Well, well.

But I feel sad when I can't play much songs spontaneously. Brush up, again.

Hope the existence of keyboard will cheer me up in my life in KL. :D

P/s: Did I tell you that I love music? I love band (marching band, concert band but not rock band), orchestra, choir, musical and this type of thingy.

Pps: Did I tell you that I have wanted the keyboard so much suddenly because I watched "NA XIE NIAN"? though this reason is kind of crazy.. ha, ha, ha..

If not, then you know now. :)

It's December, the jolly season and month again! Have a good day today!

This is just so beautiful... :)

Raining

2011-12-02T16:19:00.001+08:00

It's raining right now and I'm stucked in the college because it was raining yesterday too and I took out my umbrella. :(

Guess this is going to be a long rain... wish that I was home..

On my way.

2011-11-28T18:29:00.001+08:00

It's not the first time I'm boarding ETS, but I just knew it has the wifi zone =.= what the heck.
I don't know and not sure whether it is just implemented or what... anyway, enjoying the service :P Since there is a power plug next to me too, I would not have to worry my laptop going out of battery..

2 hours journey. Everytime I have to go back with heavy feeling :( This feeling will never go away unless there is one day I no need go away from my family again.

Usually I don't have time to update my bloggie, so I take this 2 hours (usually considered as wasted time) to do this...

- Watched Puss in Boots on Saturday, had some argument with pepper, but can't control. Usual things arise again, and yeah, arose from me again.. I just can't make myself to think in a proper way that there are certain things that are out of ours control. Have to be understanding, not demanding.. sigh, I hope time can fix all these things.

- So after so much surveying about the piano keyboard, I still decide to buy Yamaha DGX-230. Though Casio's CTK6000 is attractive enough, but its 61 keys failed it. :( but it indeed has a better stereo sound and more accompaniments and more built-in-tones and cheaper price.

Sigh, decisions, decisions.

So the keyboard will be an early Christmas gift for myself. Hope that I can get it as soon as possible. :)

- It's Week 11. Two more tests coming before we can prepare ourselves for the final exam. and I didn't get myself prepared enough for the coming tests... just don't have enough time to study at home. it's a usual thing..

Sometimes I would be wondering, is it really important or useful to know things in great detail? If not, I would have saved a lot of precious time. Sometimes I think that I study in the wrong way.. sometimes I just don't know which is the proper way to study. Just don't know.. no idea. Hardworking is not the only key, and don't mention that I don't have this key too. So what's the true way? Sigh. Why we always have to be assessed through tests? Isn't there any other way except the test on memory?

- At this moment, I really concern most on my English and my soft skills... They are not going anywhere better in the nearest time, as I can see..

- Tonight is my college's prom night.. obviously I can't attend because I couldn't get ticket. Everyone is going back to hometown on this 3 days holiday.. I only can secure one due to 4 weeks advanced buying.

- 25.11.2011 - baby nephew came to this world. Sister-in-law obviously suffer much when giving birth to this lovely, and brother sure restless too. Anyway, we all wish that you can grow up healthily. yong jie.

- one more month to christmas celebration... most probably will celebrate in Ipoh this year due to lots of factors. Having dental appointment on 23rd and genting trip and etc.. it seems that they better way is to do it in Ipoh. Hope that it will be fun too! After that I will be sitting for final exam in no time.

Have no idea how it will be, my final exam... I can only anticipate stress will surround us soon... Take care, all of my loved ones.

眼浅。

2011-11-19T10:58:00.001+08:00

。。。。。。。。。。

Those years...

2011-11-12T21:07:00.001+08:00

看了“那些年，我们一起追的女孩。”
起初心里面不停地纳闷，为什么这么多人都争着要看这部戏。也太夸张了吧...

但是看了之后，
有很多很多的感触。
每次想起故事的情节就觉得很心痛，觉得上天根本就是在玩弄人们。
虽然只是一个故事情节... 但是好像能深深体会到柯藤的感受。
虽然一切都是假象，
但是我还是会不由自主地心碎起来。

“男孩要赴女孩最后的约。。”

而那最后的约就是女孩的结婚典礼。。。

想起柯藤在沈佳宜结婚典礼那副“欣慰”的模样，想得我都想要哭了。
还有那句祝福，“新婚快乐，我的青春。”

我的青春....
这四个字足以让我有无数的感触..
沈佳宜都占了柯藤的整个青春。
可是好多事情，不该发生的都发生，
该发生的，却只有“如果”...

光阴一去不回头。好多过去的事情都不能重来...
我想起了以前的我们...

以前的我们。

感谢曾经像柯藤那样的人曾在我的青春里出现过。

柯藤那样的孩子气，现实上的我可能会很讨厌。
但是他就是那么单纯地喜欢着沈佳宜。那个单纯，足以让人心都溶化了。

如果这个故事真的如九把刀所说的一样，是真实的话。
那我对柯藤就更加敬佩了。
他把他的青春都与我们分享。让我们感受到那份爱...

因为我们也曾经有过这么的青春。

我的青春，也慢慢地，只会在我的脑海中占着一个重要的部位。
只恨当初没加以珍惜，现在一切只剩下回忆...

“ 曾经想征服全世界，
可是回首才发现，
这个世界点点滴滴都是你。”

还没看的哥儿们，一定要到戏院去走一趟。

回家一定要学弹这个... 那些年的琴谱。

The book of life

2011-11-07T21:49:00.001+08:00

1. Is to provide me guidance on everything. What should we do when we encounter this situation... What is right, what is wrong...

Where is the book of life? If it's something that can be bought, I'm sure that the price is invaluable.

Wait. I don't think a book of life can apply to everyone...

For that one that suits me,
I think I should start writing my own book of life now....

2. Meanwhile, my sis bought me so much packets of tissues . The reason is she scared that I will do big business in the train. Hahaha. I didn't do it in the end! Busy watching laptop. :) *love*

Everyday I eat

2011-10-31T14:18:00.001+08:00

Either zip or any Cadbury choco product will do.

Chocolate sensation: bite your zip (best taken out from refridgerator) or in my case this chocolate cookies and then take a sip of hot milo or hot chocolate drink. Feel the chocolate melt in your mouth while the hot milk meets your choco product.

Got my sponge bob cup free by buying 2 Colgate. Hahaha it's not a bargain actually if you look at the price but since my cup is missing and this sponge bob is so cute I decided to grab it. Cashier at the counter sure knows I have been cheated sillily. Haaha!

Try it when you feel like. I just ate my lunch and this is my tea break. Crazy. Hahahaha.

Miserably

2011-10-31T00:18:00.001+08:00

Had really miserable days since I came back from home for deepavali holiday. Though things had already been bad before that, but much more bad things had arisen after that.

1. Outstanding tm net bill of rm500.15. Wtf! Blacklist my name?! While I'm using and paying unifi bills on time dare he charge me for something that I didnt use?! Use some brain la my dear government! How come a same address can have two different lines and you just let it be?! What happened to your stupid database that never ever improving?! Dahlah cakap sekarang ni era evolusi teknologi, tapi apa sampah macam ni?! Buat orang penat Saja!!! Waste all my precious time to deal with this !!!!!! Damn fking angry pissed off with it!!!

2. ETS sold out for next Friday going back to bg. I know it's me for not being early but please la, so much demand and yet you just supply limited services? ETS being introduced, and cut off all the shuttle train pulak. Please lah be smarter a bit during the festive season! As if You don't know that we have to rely on these public transports to go back! Piece of shit!

3. The pendrive is still missing... Everytime I think of it, I feel useless and angry!!! Arghh!

4. My left wisdom tooth is hurting me... Another thing to bother about. Consulted doctor last time and he asked me to settle them only after my braces being removed. But the wisdom seems can't wait to leave me!! Darn painful..

5. Things are not organized, which makes me frustrated.

6. I have two different tests going on next week, and I didn't do any revision during the weekends... :(

Very sleepy on the bed now, so this makes an end to my miserable post. Heh heh heh...

Lappie

2011-10-30T10:13:00.002+08:00

Finally I get back my laptop!!
Thanks to my dear and my RM 175 and all those time wasted.

YEEEEAAAAHHHH!

But test is starting right after this... -.-'

and all my photos for a year gone... all my short hair pic. my old teeth look. my precious moments that can't be found now. all. gone. so sad.

and my 16gb pendrive with two little pigs... anyone can recall where i put it? I had already geledah the whole house but I couldn't find it. I'd lost total of 5 pendrives including this... I can't be this careless anymore. Please, let the pendrive back to me. It's a special gift from special one. Sob. :'(

Blogger

2011-10-29T13:37:00.001+08:00

I just found this blogger app on my iPod. Believe that It is a new app as I'd searched for it since long time ago. If not my blog won't be so dead.

• Failure. I always judge my life to be failure because I just couldn't get some thing done like what I had always wish for.

• I should've used more time to love those people who love me than to use those time on people who dislikes me.

But words are always easier said than done. Sometimes I feel that life is not easy to go on.

• I am certainly not feeling good in this very moment... Is there anyone to give me morale support? I feel that people are not that easily trusted anymore. These feelings, not good.

Cash outflow.

2011-10-13T17:15:00.000+08:00

All these cash cash ching ching chang chang ka ching stuffs already stick with me nowadays. Thanks to my course. $$$$

My laptop does not require the original RM50 to get fixed already, instead it requires RM175 now. Hard disk corrupted. What kind of thing can happen when you don't have lady of luck around you. Ladies and Gentlemen who visit my profile, kindly help me click my nuffnang ads. Your helps are greatly appreciated. *bow*

Sometimes I can't read people's mind. They are like the uncertain weather. When they feel like treating you good, they will, and when they are not, they act like the opposite side. We all are not mind readers. They can't expect us to figure out what are in their mind actually, isn't it?

Anyway, I always hope for the brighter side no matter what. At this period of time, we only wish to have the simplicity that we'd lost long time ago in our life. Life has been so complex and we even crave for the simpler way of living our lives.
Today I slept with my mouth open during Business economics class. Really super damn dizzy and tired! and it's the first time I feel that annoyed of our lecturer's voice. grrr. keep saying MR=MC and P=MC and XXOO walala. =.= guess I'd spent too much time on cash budgeting last night (correction: this morning). I certainly hate the feeling of lack of sleep. Sometimes I just don't know how to balance up my time. It's so unorganised.

Anyway, I sang "rolling in the deep" alone in the middle of the night last night. lol.

There's a fire starting in my heart,

reaching a fever pitch and bla bla blablabla..

p/s : i'm still online at library! hahahahaa.
pps : i read through the whole post and I found a lot of language errors. oh my. my english -.-

Seriously don't like this.

2011-10-06T17:43:00.000+08:00

I seriously don't like this feeling. If you purposely want to make me to feel like this, yeah you have succeeded, but it's not nice to do like this. and it's not a good deed too.

Suckerrrrrrrrrr. I don't want to get involve in anything. I don't want to remain in some place that I find extremely discomfort which is YOU who cause that discomfortness.

This is not good. real bad. You're not better in anyway, I say.

Dead dead.

2011-10-05T17:48:00.002+08:00

This blog is so dead since my laptop was dead. you can see that I even have lesser post in my facebook (though I still have many).

Running out of time. I try to make every second in the cc to be as useful as possible - by fully utilising it to surf the websites that I wish to and get those infos..

I'm currently interested in fd, which I'm not really convenient in accessing those websites in public hotspot. Whatever it is, prevention is better than cure. We have to still be careful in these public places.

I have many things to say... but I'm rushing back soon to watch the drama that I am addicted to. lol. at TV2, and I'm watching Vampire Diaries and Gossip Girl at 8tv every Tuesday night too. Don't blame me for being so conventional, the mini box in my house is the only entertainment provider that I can cling on to.

I gave away my ipod, temporarily, cause when I got it back, I "boiled" drama for the whole night. Oh gosh.

People ask me how can I live without laptop.. I didn't what. I regularly visit the cyber centre and library now. :)

It's some kind of life that I'm enjoying... routine life. Might be boring to many of them outside, but recently I just realised I'm really those follow-the-law people. It takes lots of guts for me to break the laws/rules. I even follow exactly the directions that provided at the back of every product. eg: The Sunsilk hair treatment - Use once or twice a week. and when I achieve that I have some unexplainable satisfaction. Ha Ha.

My language is getting worse I think. I have difficulties in writing this post. The flow has gone partly, I think.

Last but not least, friends who visit my blog regularly would you kindly help me to click my nuffnang ads above? Eric gave me the idea to buy books with those money. Hahahaha. Even after a year advertising I still getting nothing so I think I should put more effort. If you are kind hearted enough, please help. :) Thanks thanks thanks.

I've got quite lost in touch with mei mei and kai yan. I miss you guys..

Not be able to go back to hometown frequently.. :(

p/s : The term FRIENDS are hardly explainable. X(

Fiction and Real Life.

2011-09-14T16:31:00.002+08:00

Blaine Anderson v Darren Criss.

In the drama.

Yes. I love the thick eyebrows.. :))

In real life

Hairdo and facial hair,
no. :(

Charles Bartholomew Joseph "Chuck" Bass v Ed Westwick

In the drama II.

Yes.

Neat and tidy. Love the glam hair. and the thick eyebrows too. :D

Clean and smart clothings.

Smart looking. :))

In Real Life II

No. :(

Too much of facial hair again. Hair, messy. So many chest hair but still revealing it like that.

Clothing sense, and ugh.

So is that concludes that I don't like facial hair and into thick eyebrows?

Yeah, I like the clean look.

Was so in love for minutes until I found that reality is truly heart breaking.

Fictional characters are always better.

Sigh?
Just some sharing... :)

The Reminiscence

2011-09-12T16:52:00.000+08:00

I can't stand the feeling when I look at the old letters that some people had gave me during my primary and secondary school life. I kept them in the old drawer in my home. No doubt that those are the moments when I feel the most appreciated and each time I look back those things, the unspeakable feeling of grateful still fill up my mind and soul. Thanks for those who has once made me smile. As we all know, we grow up every minute and every second, things will never be in stationary, and people and things will eventually change and evolve. I will not beg for those moments to last forever, nor I will live in the past. Sometimes I found that I had even ignored some people that have been in my live until they have gone. Human being are like this, isn't it?

Although they may not be my good or best friend currently, I still appreciate the moment we've been through and they will never ever dies. It's in our mind, I believe.

hola!

2011-09-12T00:47:00.001+08:00

I did updated my blog but my sister's retarded mouse made me clicked the back button on the side of the mouse when I accidentally sneezed and everything gone when I clicked the forward button again.

Blank new post, so I'm not going to start over again. Yeah, lazy bump.

I am enjoying my semester break after the killing semester four and I DO NOT wish to go back to college anymore! 3 more semesters to go - 2 long 1 short, but I'm sure that it is tougher than anything that we've been through for the last 4 semesters.

and the worst thing is I'm not ready yett!!!!!

Ok I'm totally lazy and unproductive and at the same time still spending a great amount of money. Promised myself to exercise during the break cos I would not able to do so when the semester starts but ended up my butts sticking to the chair or bed ever since the break started. Failure? Maybe.

This does it. It was long time since I updated a proper blog post that I found difficulties in rephrasing my sentences now. Good luck. Below are shots to summarise my post.

- I went to horse riding. - the fake one.

- Finally got to hang out with the yellow face woman - C mei.

- Went to Langkawiii :)

Duty free heaven!

The Helangsss.

Random kittens. The white one on top slept on another two kittens at its bottom. So evil yet cute :)

Momma cat. :)

I looked like kapiting the penguin. :P

We love penguins :)

Not much to say, ohh I sound so lifeless.

I hope I can be a lil bit better, in every aspects of life ;)

Miss my collegee friends. We gonna face new challenges in no time, again!

Bonne nuit. :)

Sad case.

2011-08-18T22:34:00.001+08:00

A sad case to be shared :

Adapted from http://educationmalaysia.blogspot.com/2007/03/tar-college-not-recognised.html

TAR College Not Recognised

A few weeks ago, both Kian Ming and I wrote on the issue that the Malaysian government does not recognise degrees granted by the top universities in China - Peking and Tsinghua University. Currently, they don't even recognised these universities' degrees in Chinese studies. This is despite the fact that our Malaysian government recognises medical degrees from Uganda, Burma, Bangladesh, Pakistan and Iraq.

However, I just found out late last week, that even diplomas and degrees from our very own local Tunku Abdul Rahman College (TARC) which has been established for many years, and accepted widely by the Malaysian private sector, is not recognised by Jabatan Perkhidmatan Awan (JPA). Hence any TARC graduate seeking employment with the civil service will be rejected outright.

Network Engineer, Soo Pak Leong who graduated from TARC in 2003 has been applying to join the Royal Malaysian Police Force (PDRM) for the past 3 consecutive years, but has failed to be even shortlisted for an interview. Soo is now past the 25 year old limit for new PDRM recruits, and his dreams to be a police officer has effectively ended.

To fulfil his dreams of joining the force, Soo even downgraded his entry level to that of an Inspector, instead of a Cadet Assistant Superintendent (ASP) in his final application in the hope of achieving his ambitions.

Subsequently, he only found out from unofficial sources within the police force, much to his horror, that applications from TARC graduates are not accepted by the Government service.

Clarifications from the JPA (as above) confirmed that his academic qualification is "yet" to be recognised by the Government. Over the past seven months, Soo has written to all the MCA leaders and parliamentarians, the Education Ministries as well as the Prime Minister himself. He received no answers as to why his qualification cannot be recognised. YB Wee Ka Siong, MCA Youth Education bureau chief could only reply that this wasn't the first instance, and they will "pursue the issue further".

Hence this matter raises a few serious questions:

Firstly and obviously, what are the reasons that the Government, after so many years, is still adamant in not granting recognition of diplomas conferred by TARC, especially since TARC was set up by Barisan Nasional's very own key coalition partner, MCA. Given that many other local institutions of more dubious standing has been granted recognition, there's absolutely no reason why TARC should not be granted immediate recognition for Government employment.
Secondly, it raises the question as to whether the Government is indeed serious about its talk to raise the number of non-Malays in the Malaysian civil service, given that a large proportion of its students are of non-Malay origins. In fact, only last week, the leaders of PDRM have openly called for more non-Malays to join the force.
Thirdly, if indeed the Government has no intention of granting recognition to TARC, then it is critical for TARC administrators to make this information known to all potential students, so as to not mislead them in their future careers. While the private sector is happy to accept many of its graduates, those keen on the civil service should instead apply to other recognised colleges.

It pains me to say this, but the whole episode of the Government not granting recognition to degrees from Chinese top universities, and certificates conferred by TARC which was set up by the MCA, with the government's blessings, hints strongly at systematic disrimination by the civil service, and by implication, our top government leaders to marginalise the Chinese education community.

I hope that the Government will take immediate actions to rectify the above wrongs and demonstrate that the above is all but an exception to the rule that the Government has no intent on marginalising Malaysians of non-Malay descent.

After a sad article, it's time to continue for my tomorrow's test.

Luckily I am not planning to enter the civil service, although once I've wished for, for no any special reason. :) I just sad for that Mr. Soo.

Lastly, I miss my watch. :'(

If I Die Young?

2011-08-03T00:51:00.003+08:00

Heard this long time ago, but it gave me a deep feeling when I heard this last week when driving alone.

P/s: I think I'm not emo-ing. *roll eyes*

It's just another nice song to be enjoyed. Soothing, relaxing, and calming. The play button is worth to be clicked. :)

pps: Today our class made our Entrepeneurship lecturer angry and he stormed out the class for the first time. This makes both of the ES lecturers also angry at us. :S Are we that bad?

Week 11.

2011-07-27T00:41:00.002+08:00

Wanted to post this long time ago, in fact I'd written this post on last Sunday via iPod touch but everything was erase within a blink of an eye. So so so so so so damn sad and ketuk hati also! you know the touch screen isn't that nice to type also and i typed like 1000 words long. actually i just cincai gave a number. haha.

I want to summarise my week 11 life - The week of the semester.

1. On last Sunday me and my group of people was rushing Principles of Finance assignment at Sc's house until 1am. We were crazy but when the momentum came, you couldn't stop it also right? So we started since 2pm like that and work almost non-stop until midnight and finished the assignment. Didn't have much guidance actually, therefore don't have much guidelines on what to write. :( Anyhow, we finished and submitted the SafeAssign too. Went home at midnight happily. Next day's class 9.30am.

2. After the Monday's class, did final touch up on the assignment and printed it out at school's cc. After that looked for the formal wear for the next day's presentation.

Didn't really chose wisely cos short on time. Never know that Isetan closes at 9.30pm :(

3. Tuesday was the big day. The Entrepreneurship presentation day. It's the judgement day for the whole 5-6 weeks of hardwork and sweat and blood and everything. 100% coursework on the business plan and presentation. Not much to comment. Very lucky, real lucky. Couldn't imagine what questions would be asked and therefore didn't prepare for it too. and luckily, mr lai's mood was good that day. Sad for the previous week's groups as he asked a lot of questions that day.

So we did our best and the best and then overjoyed after the end of presentation. XD

After finish sakai-ing in the class, I went for my last Japanese class.

4. Yeah, last Japanese class. I wouldn't say time flies, as I was actually quite struggling through the time =.= A lil bit of heavy heart, but most of my feeling was joy. :D ahahak. Talked a lot that day and in the end of the class met Loo sensei outside, he said that I can pick up. Threw me into dilemma thinking whether should continue lower intermediate or not. hmm. hmm. Okay I actually shouldn't take that too seriously. hahaha.

5. Wednesday. Everything is quite normal just that I was rushing from this class to another class. Yeah only me cos I was lazy to attend the morning class and decided to attend the noon's class. It made me need to attend three classes back to back and luckily I made it. Just that my leg almost patah in the end of the day. Felt my muscle was tense around my bone cos I used a lot of strength to walk really fast. After the last class, actually would be able to go for a movie with Xia, but refused cos I tot want to do revision for Japanese test that will be held on the next day.

Therefore farewell and went back home.

IN THE END I played games until 12am until I started to flip the Japanese text and then I practised Hiragana and Katakana before I started to slam my face on the study desk, ie fell asleep.

6. On Thursday there should be a lecture at 8am until 10am. I planned to study from 10am until 5pm for the test. However,... however. When I opened my eyes it was 11am. Holy shit I relax-ly went to prepare myself for study and only started revising at 12pm.

No need to mention how nervous I'd turned into be after I found that I couldn't get those vocabs to stick on my mind. And there were a lot of other parts that I needed to prepare myself also but in the end I didn't manage to do so.

So I sat for exam, clueless. (don't want to mention how was the exam, results on the next semester is the thing. cos sometimes you study hard you also can't score, and vice versa. It's all depend on the results. ;D )

Went for a buffet steamboat with fellow Japanese classmates at Danau Kota. yeeaahh steamboat AGAIN. (can you sense that I wasn't that enjoy?) cos I just ate steamboat last week before that. and this led me to my next point.

7. Before I went back home that night, I just realised that I was going to Sunway on Friday and I haven't pack a single thing yet! and the guys planned to eat STEAMBOAT at sunway tomoro @@

8. On Friday. Stepped my feet on Sunway's territory for the 3rd time. Previous two times weren't able to "play" water. This time I get the chance to do so. Worth the money actually cos it opens from 11am until 6pm and we really ran around the parks from 11am til 6pm without any single rest.

However things gone bad after I played that super horrible-frightening-terrifying-heart attacking 360 degree pirate ship. Everytime I am like that. Feel nothing when everyone mention want to play but only starts to get horrified when the "thing" moved. Just like Menara Taming Sari too. I seriously fupping afraid of height. Even the ferris wheel is enough to scare me. Please trust me, I'm not making any drama out there.

Nobody just going to calm me down anyway, everyone was busy shouting.

Details on another post ba.

9. Saturday my whole back ached like lao po po po po..... become 宅婆。

10. Went out with sista! for HK MOVIE AGAINNNN AHH AHH AHH AHHA HAHH! (getting crazy) Being cheated cos she said we were going to watch mr popper's penguin but she said it was SOLD OUT and she bought the WU XIA. Okay la actually it's better than those lame hk movies but some part it pulls too long until my back's pain is doubling. Feel like a real old woman. :\/

That summarise my last week ba.

Today I fell down at college cos walked too fast on my ~~cheap slippery RM29.99 BATA SHOES~~!!!!!!!!!
Wounded on my left knee and left foot.

and apart from that, I had a nightmare this morning too.

Then apart from that, I almost fell down for twice too after the real fall.

Then apart from that, i "swallowed" red marker pen ink and the ink splashed all over my face and clothes too.

Then apart from that, I really don't like that particular person. and you too.

Then apart from that, I'm so cheong hei.

I looked damn pale. candid. and saw the red inks?

I WANT TO SHUFFLE!!!!!!!!! hope that wounds faster recover ;(

Mean.

2011-07-15T23:33:00.004+08:00

" Someday I will living in the big old city, and all you're ever gonna be is mean.
Someday I will be big enough so you can't hit me, and all you're ever gonna be is mean.
Why you have to be so mean? "

I'm not directing this to any particular person just that I feel like singing this again and again.

It's Friday night, hoohoo. I'm feeling high today!

Last week's achievement. Won RM50 Neway karaoke voucher. :D

Steamboat with Nihongo no classmates. :)

First time eating GCB! Like the chicken meat NOM NOM NOM. :B

Thank you you all. <3 hope everything is going the right way. :)

I suddenly feel that life is so short for me to explore everything! and I'm not financially able to do so. Anyhow, hHope to get my ass to UK in coming years. ;D

Currently a happy coloured hair girl who wish to get a redder hair and a better body. :)

Enlightenment.

2011-07-14T00:47:00.006+08:00

Familiar? I'd backed to this dark layout and the bokeh background. :B

I tend to share really less these times! Not sure what is happening.

I'm still busy and I will still be busy with my courseworks until the very next week. and 3 weeks after the next week will be the week I start to sit for my final exam.

Semester four, in a blink of an eye.

Not sure how far or how best that I can go, luck is one of the determining factor.

Have no opinion on the bersih stuffs, just that I think their motives can be supported. But things just aren't that easy isn't it?

I want to be who I am. My friends should choose to be with me because of who am I, not who they think I am.
So friends, do you know who I am?

I have definitely LOW disposable income. -.-

A professional accountant in the future? It's either I give up or I go to the best. Already knew that the road awaiting ahead isn't easy. Let's see how long I can survive. :)

$$$$$$$. oh shit.

New interface.

2011-07-08T23:56:00.001+08:00

Blogspot has new interface for this new post part!

dyed my hair RED few weeks ago at one of those professional saloon (what they address themselves as) at mid vally. it is suppose to be REDDER but due to the different base colour of red and my previous brown, it was difficult to stick on my hair and now I'm not so certain what my hair colour had turned into.

Nevermind, I will certainly dye dark reddish colour again in the future. :) gonna change my hair colour to red base before change it back to brown in the very next future.

I'm going to end my semester 4 soon. :O

I found that there are people who are sourgrape and try to beat your confidence level sometimes when you have new attempts on different things. They just full of jealousy.

*wondering how am I going to sit for the final exam this semester... *

NEVER

2011-07-06T20:50:00.000+08:00

never put hope on anyone and think that that "anyone" will be there for you whatever that happens.

I've experienced thrice times today with 3 different persons. It makes me very very difficult to trust anyone now.

I hope I can stand strongly on my own. If I am, I will most probably save a lot of dramas from happening. Being the youngest in the house, I thought I'm the one who can be protected from all the harms and everything.

But the only person who can protect myself is only my own.

as a cold-blooded person.

It's not easy to live outside from your house and stand still on your own. it's not easy. you've not even experienced it. so shut your mouth up.

late night

2011-06-27T01:51:00.002+08:00

Became sentimental after looking at one of my "old friend" 's profile.

He didn't add me as friend, yeah.

I miss the good times he had once brought to me. Though he wasn't the perfect or the right one, I still appreciate a lot the love that he had once showered on me.

The only thing I wish currently is to keep in touch with him again...

Besides, at this very moment, I think of my primary school's dream occupation,

of being a flight attendant.

Though I may or may not have the requirements.

I hope to improve my language and everything.
I hope the time allows me more to be sentimental for more little while.

Good night.

Busy !

2011-06-23T00:08:00.000+08:00

I'm extremely busy for weeks until now I miss the songs that playing in my blog.

I've not enough time for socializing, cos I don't even have enough time for myself. I'm tired and busy both physically and mentally, and hardly can squeeze out any time like this for me to blogging. and the purpose for me to switch on my laptop is just to charge my iPod. Just imagine after I've got myself an adaptor.. When will I have time to even turn on the laptop?

I miss my hometown friends. Although I went back almost every week before this but as I said, I'm too busy to meet anyone even my own sisters. That's because I really have way too much things to catch up on my studies and almost every subject need great understanding and it's really time consuming for me to do so... and not to mention my Japanese class..

I'm already half way of my elementary level of Japanese class, by the way. :)

Sometimes I also don't understand why am I this busy.. and I can't really focus when I'm studying and my mind keep wandering off sometimes which cost me extra time to do everything I have in my to-do-list..

I bought few hundred bucks stuffs in Guardian today. Thanks for the RM5 charity bonanza booklet. Haih! I have a really serious bad habit, which is everytime I saw stuffs under normal price I can't resist to buy even though I still have stocks in my house. and today I just repeated my bad habit again. When I reached home I just found out that I still have 3 unused cleansers that I bought way long time ago. I seriously need to kill this bad habit of mine before I would been thrown into poverty state.

Meanwhile, few photos update for readers :)

I've gotten a hair rebonding as what I've mentioned in the previous post.

Random pic of us. and I'd changed to pink braces for this time . Like it :D

Dim sum session during Father's Day.

Soon after that went to meet Mei Mei and Chong Lih Sung.

I wish to bond with every friend I have but I just got too less of time... Hope everyone can bear with me while I got all my stuffs to be settled in the soonest time.

I hope I won't die of pressure or work load. I have that kind of creepy feeling -.-

Good day!

Restless.

2011-06-16T13:37:00.000+08:00

Cheated by the stall at the side of the road. Bought one fruit salad cost rm3 which only have apples and grapes. Not even bananas. But money really difficult to earn nowadays. We need to be creative as what our entrepeneurship lecturer always remind us to include creativity in our business plan...

I've fallen sick, to be precise is I've flu until I'm really dizzy and weak. Got lots of things on mind that can't be settled in a short time. Restless.

Why can't I do things at home? Why i dun feel that typical peace and relax when I go back home? I just can't get my things done and time that used for travel also a lot.

And btw, I'd lost my casio baby g watch. It is given by my dear. I feel like slapping myself. But it's not really under my conscious too... things around me just keep running away from me... I'm careful mote nowadays which makes me have a lot of panic attack out of sudden all the time, but it's still to no avail... Freaking sad :(

so long.

2011-06-09T23:52:00.004+08:00

Long time didn't update huh? Yeah I'm getting myself off from the net. but still, I'm still constantly accessing plurk and twitter through iPod touch.

- Yeah, dearest has gotten me an iPod touch 4G after being disappointed by the stupid i-city mall.

With T&C ya, there is no free lunch in this world after all. haha.

One of the thing that I like it because it has the front camera and the quality turn out to be not really too bad, although not superb. This is iPod touch 4th gen, though 5th gen is coming out soon, but I think I'll be enjoying this for a period of time first. :)

Not that much things to play around too actually, but it's totally adequate for me :D and saw the yellow clothes for my touch? Pepper bought it one. Sharp. I won't lose it anywhere :D

Oh ya, you may ask me why not get myself an iPad? just need to add on a few hundred bucks...
Ans : It's not that portable after all... reasonable enough ? :)

- Deactivated facebook 2 days ago, surprisingly found that I've less commitment, perhaps? but I'm far behind of my friends recent statuses and bla bla bla. If only there are someone who willing to share with you personally? or someone to tell me what had happened .. =.=

I just activated back. lol. cos I just want to share a song... My mum's fav. "tie a yellow ribbon around the old oak tree." That's a romantic song. :)

funny reason right? yeah that's my main purpose. :P

- Unifi is great!! :D

- I seriously need to do something to my hair! Cut it again?! I just found that my friend didn't notice that I was short hair when I first attended the college.. super sad case.

I think I will go relaxing/rebonding after I got my financial support. IMO rebonded hair grow faster. :) then I will let it grow and grow and grow and grow and CUT, again,

P/s : freaking love the retina display of iPod touch 4g. ;) and I'm really busy with everything and my Japanese class now!

Sensitive?

2011-06-06T01:08:00.000+08:00

Am I being sensitive or what? Or I'd rather say that I'm so tired of all these things?

If you're wearing a mask facing mr now, I hope you can back off and be your ownself. Why you want to suffer yourself? It's nit good for both of us too.

If you really care, confront me. If you're not going to, I hope I will confront you in the nearest time.., cheers...

Photo blogging

2011-06-03T01:59:00.001+08:00

There are so much of photo blogging that I'd decided maybe I should create one label under one.

I reached Ipoh safe and sound under my sis' driving skill yet threatening enough! I don't want to sleep in the car anymore! She takes pic of me sleeping like a dinosaur! what the heck!

These are the updates I wish to share recently :

1. 17th May.

The weather was quite bad since I went back for the 4th semester of my college life. It was super hot in the day and raining during the night. and during one fine night I found that haze was so heavy and thick that it actually covered the view of KLCC and Menara KL. Just compare the photo with bright sunshine as below :

These were taken another day. Nice landscape right ;D

2. Bio-Essence Tri-Action Aqua Boost.

I've gotten myself the complete set of this range after a few trial of Ah Xia's tri-action aqua boost cleanser. and I totally love the feeling! It won't leave your face dry and dead like how Clean and Clear treated me before this.

3. Dearest's Graduation ceremony.

Still not manage to get the photos but this was the flower that his eldest sister gubah-ed. Impressive. :)

4. Wesak Day

I went out with my eldest sis for a walk and a movie, Water for Elephant during this year's Wesak Day, at Pavillion. Meanwhile, got myself a pair of new heels from Vincci, again. :P

All of us just like to capture pictures inside the dressing room, isn't it...

5. Random

Pig was showing me how to fill in petrol with credit card. Sorry I am a noobie please forgive me.

6. Green Beans Seeds

Pig has gotten back to his childhood memories and wished to plant these green bean seeds in WET cotton once more. Haha. This was a pic after 3 days of growth.

4th day. :) Life is beautiful, isn't it?

7. Souvenirs from loved ones.

From Singapore with love by pig's sister, Mimi. :) How nice and sweet! It's my current mousepad. :)

It's from Korea. :D It reminds me of Princess Hour-Goong's Dancing teddy. <3 Thanks Ling. It makes me smile. :)

Left - Mei Mei. She tried to find the weirdest thing as possible for me. and I think it passed my weird test! The slipper is weird enough :D Thanks mm!

Right - Siew Ching. 3 Loves from Hk are totally sweet :D

It's Hand cream with peach flavour - Etude House . Ling bought it from Korea too. and pandass are everywhere now. <3 I love it very very much! It's cute, and it makes me smile.

8. One fine Monday

Yes, three of us were hungry and went out to canteen 1 to eat MAGGI CUPMEE.

and guess what...

Siew Ching treated us lollipops! :D

and I bought sweets. :D

Siao Kia.

-END-

p/s : im still waiting and waiting for it.

those days.

2011-05-28T15:32:00.000+08:00

I went back to Ipoh. Grandma (mother side) is getting sicker these days and I'm quite down about it.
My grandma has always been a very strong woman and the whole strong figure is still lying deep inside my mind until now. I can say that I'm partly nursed by my grandma too during my childhood and in my memories, she is the one who never stop working and working even though her back is bender every year.

She cooks nice food for us, and the most memorable one is she taught me how to wear my school shoes and she waited with me at the connecting stairs in front of the door of my old house for Bee Jie, the school bus driver who has been fetching me and my siblings to school since kindergarten until I entered standard 3, when me and my family had moved from Tmn Sayang to my current house, Tmn Changkat Jaya.

I can still remember that sometimes during secondary school, when mum really can't get out from her schedule to fetch me from school, I had walked to my grandma's home from YK. and I would see grandma is behing the kitchen there, cooking or washing the utensils. She's never stopped working. and I would certainly feel sorry for that. I hoped to live with her, even though with her usual nag and all that...

Talk about walking from school after school time, walking is really some kind of task for me. and how sad and envy I'd felt when I saw my friends' mum who came and fetched them on time. I'd once blamed my mum too, for not squeezing out the time to fetch me, for I need to go to the public telephone and called the hospital to look for my mum..

Things of course easier when I got my license in form 5, and my brother was willing to let me drive his car.

Mum and grandma are still the best mums for me. Grandma is still that strong to me now, even with the sickness.

I hope she is happy everyday.

I love my grandma.

Apart from those things mentioned, some thing did happen, and I'm trying to be not affected by it.

Konnichiwa.

2011-05-26T10:52:00.002+08:00

I have several complications in my mind again.

I'd took Japanese language for God's sake. I don't want to trouble myself by explaining what is the thing that lead to the current situation but after my last trial in changing the language course was failed, I decided to have determination and slowly develop my passion towards it.

Some of the people may be living outside there just to look at how fail I am making the wrong decision and then laugh or tease me for not listening to their advice or somewhat else. Truthfully I hope to close my eyes when those person are around me and listen to those who only give positive supports. I believe in my close friends, I hope they are not laughing behind me too.

After all we need to tackle a lot of difficulties in life in later, this may be only one of them I must learn how to face it. Yeah, I need to learn how to not be controlled solely by my emotion. I scared I will prone to giving up whenever I feel like a fish out of the water. I pray, hope and wish that everyday will be a better and after I know that I have the very determination, I will work things out. I have no guarantee, but so far I hope that I can make it until 19th July.

My core studies I also cannot cope with. Second year is totally different as what Kent had told me before. Realised that. Work hard, enough to say.

But the fact is, if I really knew what I should do I shouldn't be blogging at this minute of time . =.= I hope internet never exist.

Still I need support constantly to break all the mountains and obstacles in front of me. raaah!

Suddenly the feeling reminds me of my childhood, during standard 4, I remember that I wrapped my hands around the sofa and refused to go to piano class, crying, said that I want to stop learning piano.

And see, I'm a happy piano 8-grader now.

I hope you know that I'm not bragging. just to say that determination and HOLDING ON are really important in life.

I know my family and my boyfriend and my friends love me. and I love them too. Thank you. :)

p/s : I tend to share REALLY LESS now compared to the old days... I wonder why? I mean among my friends... is there anyone I can trust with? and someone like what I'd mentioned in my fb status :

" someone who won't jealous of my achievement,
nor someone who will look down on my failure... "

The graduate.

2011-05-22T01:18:00.000+08:00

Ah pig pepper loki lok had his graduation day today. I feel the happy aura everywhere. Even though the weather may not be that cooperative after all but it may not be that uncooperative too. lol. Pictures will be uploaded when I get it.

Again, I can't stop saying that I'm very proud of him! :) He found way to get me in at least. It makes me can't wait for my own graduation ceremony pulak. :P

Wth I always run out of ideas.

2011-05-18T01:52:00.003+08:00

I always run out of ideas what to post as my post title. I always use "today", "yesterday", "sometimes", "sometimes 2" and it will be "sometimes 3, 4, 5 ,6 .... etc"

Anyway it's not my point. lol.

I went out with my eldest sister today. Watched Water for Elephant. It's quite nice to be watched if you haven't. It's better than what I'd thought of.

Btw. I'm just posting this to tell you guys that I will post new things soon. It's late already and I have a replacement class MAF at 9.30am tomorrow. what the food.

These days I really like the view from the side of my fringe. At first I really kind of regret cutting my fringe. But come on la I've been keeping my fringe long for the whole year of 2010. At least for some change. Even though I'd been said as aunty by my sister. But anyway I will keep it long again. Everything will be long loong loooong and looooooooong. I wonder how long it takes and whether it's nice or not. @_@

Oh ya, I found that I have blackheads wth -.-

Never cut thick fringe. I mean I only know how to tell the hairdresser to "yat see see" meaning thin type of fringe and it will looks like maruko that type. haha.

I'm seriously fattking bankrupt. When I say I'm bankrupt, I really do bankrupt. So pretty please don't ever invite me to any outing until my 2P2T1N savior comes.

Today I saw nice affordable denims in F21. Good night.

Today's achievement.

2011-05-15T14:28:00.004+08:00

while some people's post may be about those happening events that they attended... mine is just an ordinary college-girl-who-cooks-herself-in-home post. It's an achievement anyway, and it's my first time to cook by my own. Usually guided by my dear. lol. Btw I had to searched through the website to see how to cut and cook basic broccoli and cauliflower... that's suck. haha. anyway I managed to cook seaweed soup and the broccoli+cauliflower+carrot stripes as my lunch. (and it will be my dinner too T.T)

I will get better in time ;P

He came to accompany me, (thanks dear !) and we had precious and happy moments together even for just one day. :)

He bought this for me. I sticked it all over my laptop and mirror. Probably some in my future gadget XD

Will tell you guys when I got it. :3

.........

2011-05-12T00:55:00.000+08:00

Source : Google images - lomo.

Few thoughts playing :

1. I miss my mum, my sister, my boyfriend.

2. I feel kind of down at this moment of time.

3. Demotivated.

4. I'm listening to Chilam's The Maiden's prayer. Piles of memories pour out. and I can't stop listening to it again and again.

5. I hope the pos laju will reach to my bestie tomorrow.

6. I want to learn Lady Gaga's Judas dance.

7. Today's classes - Basic Taxation and Managementt Accounting woke me up half from my dreams. Eh - I just found that I'd already started my college life.

8. Now I'm moving to 严爵 & 刘若英 - 旋律没有告诉你 . It's one of the songs that playing quite frequently in my playlist.

9. I don't think I can do well in these account stuffs. :(

10. Tomorrow is the judgement day. Everything is actually less complicated and emotion-related if they are no people who are nosy about your results.

11. Of course, with the condition you don't do the same to others too...

12. Tomorrow I'm having a 8 am replacement class... I told my housemate that I was sleepy, but I still don't go to bed until now.

13. It is terrible.

14. I'm really sad about my dark eye circles that two of my friends exclaimed about today. Actually it's kind of unbearable too if I stare to the mirror to myself.

15. Big girls don't cry.

A social creature...

2011-05-10T21:04:00.001+08:00

Everybody has a social creature inside them. Find out what berry are you today! #digiwhatberry

It's quite true. Find it out, my dear friends. :)

I'm so hot.

2011-05-07T15:23:00.002+08:00

Not that sexy hot. But panas punya hot.

Get really dizzy with this weather.

I'm afraid that after 3 weeks holiday, I don't know how to talk with other people anymore.

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2011-05-05T18:32:00.001+08:00

Being hurt deeply, real deep, and when nobody know exactly how you feel. I feel lost. Was lost in the darkness (okay abit dramatic) but it's true. I don't know what's the point of writing this out but my heart truly broke into two for two consecutive days. Break. Shattered. I'm so sad.

Sad is not because of being mistreated, it's because I suddenly realise that nobody can even protect me from the harm. All they know is to ask me to keep my damn mouth shut. I cried, but no weeping sound came out. I can't afford to let it slip a little out from my mouth. Can't afford, at all.

Luckily I have my dearest and my sisters.. Truly dearest. Still remember how warm I felt in you guys' arms. and my dear, the way you rub my head.. i feel all the love by you guys. thank you.

Still, I feel down.

I’m a Pirate, Take Me To Stranger Tides!

2011-05-01T19:32:00.006+08:00

Yay! Pirates of the Caribbean! This reminds me how sad I was after watching Pirates of the Caribbean III : At world's End in the cinema that day.
I thought that was the last of the Pirates series and wouldn't be able to see Johnny in that outfit anymore! Haha. Teehees. Dumbo last time. ;)

Anyway this is a blog post for joining the contest in Nuffnang. Never join before, and therefore trying my luck for the very first time because of this fellow pirate!

For me, the best THREE things about being a pirate are : -

1. You don't need to brush your teeth and get decayed teeth without being discriminated! :B

Oh yeah. What a joy. Maybe not for everyone of you, but for me, yes. I'm a braces wearer who is bearing the 2-years-long task to brush teeth everytime after your meal! What a disgrace. While being a pirate, it's a disgrace to brush your teeth! You need to keep the teeth brownish and yellowish enough to tear the meat apart and to GRIN - scare people away. *chuckles* hahaha. Thinking of it is enough to make me feel like a pirate. ;B

2. Have your very own Jolly Roger!

That's just so cool to have your own Jolly Roger swaying in the air, on the top of your own boat! And everyone will have cool feet when they see my Jolly Roger coming from far away indicating that I'm coming to rob their belongings! Hahahahaha! "Surrender your belongings, mortals!"

This would be MY version!

Erm low quality flag.. but who cares! It's a pirate's flag. XD

3. The adventure!

Aye aye aye! That's the best part of it! You get to travel everywhere in your pirate boat with your fellow pirates follower. Spot ships, then steal the loots! (maybe their ships too) What a life! Battles! Life as a looter gets more challenging everyday! But nothing that a pirate like me would be afraid of! Victory everytime! Just by hearing my name drains the blood out of their faces. Haha. Glorious! and with the adventure in the sea.. a pirate will certainly become SEASICK-proof! FARE-tee-well!

Okay come back to the reality. I hope I can win the passes as well as the O.P.I. nail lacquer. Pirates need to take care of their nails, too. To tear meats. ;D

*finger crossed*

UPDATE : I won two passes! but i am not able to go and watch it and need to pass to my eldest sis... too bad! But i didn't win OPI :(

True fairytale.

2011-04-30T01:40:00.000+08:00

Wait, it isn't a fairytale..
It's a true wedding of a common girl to the very prince of United Kingdom.

Ahh prince prince... these royalty stuffs don't actually occupy my mind all the time... not until you revive it.

I almost forgot that marrying a prince is like, every girl's dream. heheh.

and he's truly the prince - with title, not to say the prince in your heart or whatever.

Had goosebumps when I observe the whole wedding ceremony and the crowds from 3pm to 9.30pm . Blood runs all over my body. A TRUE ROYAL WEDDING, maybe wedding of the century, as they said.

Nothing more to say. just to say I'm really excited about this whole thing. and it's like watching a movie. lol.

I just love this photo. The electricity over their eyes. So it's still every girl's dream too, to find someone who they can depend on, for the rest of her life. and she found her Mr. Right. :)

Blessing from everyone, Happy married,

Duke and Duchness of Cambridge . :)

Thanks S.U.

2011-04-24T16:56:00.001+08:00

Jordan L. Thank you. I will make it a list and I promise to cross them all in no time!

*punch fist to the air*

How long ago?

2011-04-23T17:59:00.003+08:00

How long ago since I updated my last blog post? Haha. Meanwhile, I managed to go struggle through the two exams after my last blog post - English for Business and Organisation & Human Resource. Tough enough, especially that I went back to Perak before my OHR paper and actually didn't really manage to bury my head deep enough to the notes. I only studied OHR a lil bit before exam. Stress during exam.. Hahaha.

People wouldn't like to listen how bad did you did in your exam.. you wouldn't like to listen to other people's also. Therefore if you did badly in your examination, it's the best to keep all those things to yourself. ~~(Although I am always the one who fail to do so and start to ask people about this and that after exam -. haih, failure!)~~

seriously i looked fat in this pic. exam stress...

All these pics were taken after English paper. Went to Bandar Tasik Selatan and bought 16 bus tickets to Melaka Sentral. :D

After Exam

Went to Xia's house to overnight so that we can save up some time another day.. ended up we still late on the next morning and ALMOST miss the bus. lucky enough haha anyway. :)

Melaka trip 13/04-14/04

After just hopped in the bus. Victory!

Just-wake-up face. Reached Alor Gajah after 2 hours. Damn fast.

#After that took the green town bus and saw one aunty, we asked her where to unboard if we want to go to the menara taming sari and she told us to unboard with her. =.=

END UP...

WE NEED TO WALK OURSELVES FROM THE PLACE TO OUR HOTEL FOR ALMOST 25 minutes!!!

Just look at my silly running pose. We are reaching the hotel btw.

counting $.

While some other people like him just nothing to do!

# After that we got to Mahkota Parade to have our lunch. we wandered around Dataran Pahlawan and sesat jalan inside for almost 15 minutes.

we got our lunch :)

#After that we went to Dataran again to buy movie tickets for the midnight :) "Ghost must be crazy" I should have regretted at that moment of buying. I MUST BE CRAZY!!

Hopeless children...

A fierce security guard helped us to take it. Hahaha.

# After that we almost get sesat jalan again and finally got our feet at Muzium Merdeka or something.

As you see, main thing was only playing around inside there. ;P

James and his team of children..

# Muzium Istana @ RM1 instead of RM2 because we are TARC students. hahahaa!

The window pic that ppl obsessed with.

# We messing around again too in that muzium before we offed to another spot, the St. Paul church. We need to climb up a long long stairs and we did, even though we were kinda exhausted already.

Seriously I have no idea what was me doing...

What happened to his hand?

See that galah panjang Menara Taming Sari. I was so beria-ia to sit on it when looked at it from the hill.

Love the wind there :3

See, they were messing around again. They could mess up wherever they go...

Had sun burn already...

#After that we went down from the hill.

Look at that silly big child.

and more...

Landmark!

Group pic again by a friendly foreigner :D

The smelly straits of malacca.

NIGHT COMES...

This kincir air. I certainly miss the moments too when I first landed my feet on Melaka with my Yuk Kwan's classmates. :)

Waiting for SATE CELUP!!

and later, walked to Menara Taming Sari. Rm10 per pax with MyKad.

I was still happy before the thing started to move.. but when it started to move up I really terrified to the max and couldn't be able to stand up. Seriously. Everyone stood up and looked at the view while me and another partner, TZE KIN the great, leaned on the chairs.

One word : Embarassing!!!!

HOW COULD SHE NOT AFRAID AT ALL!?

# okay next thing that happened... we planned a surprise bday party (well not really a party) to the April babies. It was quite a success :D Happy birthday to Jeremy, Suki, Kerxin, and dearest Siew Ching. :)

credits to PETER HOO and WEN QIAN who went down to buy the cake. :D

# After that we offed for movie. I payed RM9 to scare myself out of my throat.
Before the movie they were quite strict on our ages until they need to check our IC! Wth! Shit staffs.

Anyway overall the movie quite humourous except those parts who popped out to scare people. Jeremy found it amusing. Oh god.

# After the movie we gathered at the boys room until 4am. Played lots of games.. and aha.

2nd day.

# First stop : Breakfast at Chung Hwa restaurant - Chicken rice ball!!

Don't look at those rice ball like not tasty at all or you will be slapping your face if you have the chance to eat it! and the chicken also nice.

Me and Xia were the biggest eaters for our table. Others stopped eating so fast! Can't understand them.

# Then we offed to SAM SUK GONG to buy some souvenirs.

Those things that I bought kinda disappoint me :(

Jonker Street.

# After that we went back to check ourselves our from the hotel... and we went to Mahkota Parade to do some shopping as our last stop. :)

Love this capture here and jeremy's silly face :P

Kena cheated to go bowling.. it was my first time to bowl with them.

With no doubt I'm the lowest scorer ;(

Their version of "She Wen". (French kiss)

Gay lou version.

Last pic in MP.

See what I got for my dear ;P

# The last hour made us all so nervous. We scared that we will miss the bus and this and that... gulped in maggi goreng at unknown mamak stall and then rushed to MP to see whether there are any town bus around. No sign of it. Took taxi finally.

and we reached safely ! :D

At Melaka Sentral, waiting for our bus. :)

Victory! It was a success. Will go for a trip again next time. Aim to travel the whole west Malaysia in our diploma course..

Took few hours to update this blog post. damn dizzy! Hope it won't hurt your eyes. Bye guys!

What a wonderful world.

2011-04-05T15:01:00.003+08:00

" I see trees of green, and roses bloom,

I watch them bloom, for me and you,

and I think to myself...

WHAT A WONDERFUL WORLD~ "

Aren't the world beautiful?

For me, I think yes :)

Lovessssssss.

I love the nice feeling that I have when I'm spending time with these dudes.

Of course there are still many loves to persons not inside the pic... My brother, Awang, Wen Hao, Aaron, Monkey, etc..

How wonderful that God lets me to know all of the persons in my life. :)

Currently having final exam, and I'm still here, blogging =.=

Yesterday I had Tamadun Islam and Asia exam. Felt like I was sitting for SPM sejarah paper. You know it is impossible for us to memorise the whole book and that's really depends on your luck whether you memorise the right thing. Others are all understanding then enough...

So I memorised the wrong thing that's the thing that happened. How sad. CW are able to help me but I may not able to get the highest honour...

Tomorrow I will be sitting for English for Business. Don't have any idea what to read, though... May God bless me. and my form 6 SYS friends, they are going to sit for MUET speaking this week. God bless everyone of us. - with love

The number of this label.

2011-03-24T23:10:00.004+08:00

The SICK label. I'm going to increase its number again...

Yeah guess what? I've been sneezing the whole day long today until my body had turned cold because of the sneezingss. I felt totally unwell and still I needed to get myself to carrefour Wangsa Maju post office and buy an express post envelope and send it and wait for the bust for a long long time and wait again at tarc at long long time inside the metrobus and finally get my ass home after a good ol one and a half hour. That's how a life without a car but only public transport.

After I reached home I continued to sneeze and I went to bathe and I sneezed again. Felt the emptiness of my stomach and my condition turned worst. SC was eating with her bf, so it's ok, I went down to buy steamed rice, ok not bad luckily. Met Yoke Kong, my old classmate in YK, he said that I looked like a zombie now because my face has became extremely small and no meat at all. I'm kinda terrified. Haha. He said last time looked like bread face one. lol. I wonder whether today only he said that because today only he noticed or I've really turned into corpse face after a few sneeze. Cos everytime saw hm in the college he didn't exclaim like that also. . .

He asked me whether I got go out or not one. He tot I'm the type of person who just trap myself inside the room and study study study... =,= I just haven't met him yet in any leisure spots, and he made that assumption. hahaha.

Anyway after eating my dinner I called my sis and mum to complain about my condition. Mum said maybe my room too dirty. I just realised that I've been postponing my clean-room plan for a week like that ady.. Not because I lazy, all because of valid reasons such as going back to BG.

I took the initiative to sweep and mop the floor, and the wall rack, and the fan. Don't have a mask, have to bear with the dust flying around.. After one and half hour of cleaning and trembling of hands finally I get my work done.

I just want a healthy body... and someone to take care of me at this very moment...

THANKS TO XIA's YOUCAM. I HAD FUN. LOL.

wondering how the new layout looks like... comments please :)

sinking.

2011-03-19T11:37:00.000+08:00

I meant my heart.

Why they want to be so cruel to me?

Why it's never me??

Why want to take my hope away?????

HOPELESS-NESS

Random-ness

2011-03-17T22:15:00.000+08:00

The great people in Perak.

The great people from KB.

ahaha. I need a good rest... I think that I am thinking too much... a cold feeling inside my heart.

sometimes 2

2011-03-15T22:40:00.001+08:00

Realised that I had a post entitled "sometimes", so I name this as sometimes 2.

Sometimes life is just not so fair.
Sometimes you think that you did the right thing, but everyone will point at you and say that you are doing the wrong one.
Sometimes you think that life is just not under your control, and you lost the motivation to make any move, you let Fate to decide everything.
Sometimes you think that everyone hates you, but they are not actually.
Sometimes you think that you can take someone for granted, and you think that that person doesn't know that you are doing so, and you're wrong in the end...
Sometimes when you are living the peak of your life, some kind of disaster will come and disturb your happiness.
Sometimes you feel like you want to be alone, but you just don't have the chance to be a lone some.
Sometimes you want to be in a group, but you just don't have a group of people surround you and laugh in a group.
Sometimes you hope that there are some people who can listen to you once, but you just hardly find those people.
Sometimes you hope that there are people who agree and support you in your whatever act, but you just fail to seek the supportive person.

and sometimes, you think that you are the worst people or the saddest people in your life, you do not know how blissful or how happy that you can be actually..

Pray for them

Platinum Status.

2011-03-13T12:50:00.001+08:00

Browsed through the newspaper today and saw some advertisements on a few colleges.
It is almost one year since I'd been concerning about my tertiary studies last years. SPM result was announced last year around 15th March (not remember the exact date).

Heard my lecturer mentioning TAR College's platinum status of conducting ACCA courses that day. Felt proud that I'd actually chose TARC to pursue accountancy.

"There are two colleges in Malaysia that have been rewarded platinum status by ACCA, one is Sunway UC, another is TAR college."
"Parents do not know anything about Sunway and TAR, the only thing that they know is that the fees in sunway is actually SIX TIMES of TARC's fees."
"and TAR college is the only college in Malaysia that have been awarded premier status for conducting CIMA."

From a website : http://web3.tarc.edu.my/v1/mainweb/press/press07/cont1508.htm

"The new Platinum award is a continuation of the Premier Plus Award that the College has been holding since 2005. In order to qualify for the prestigious Platinum award, TAR College had demonstrated that it meets the challenging performance targets set by ACCA. Among its strengths are:

	TAR College students have consistently achieved good pass rates exceeding that of worldwide rates in the ACCA examinations;
	The College possesses excellent teaching and learning support as well as facilities that ensures the highest academic standards;
	The College has highly qualified and experienced teaching staff who are capable of providing a high standard of tuition and services to students, including comprehensive pastoral support for students; and
	The College provides excellent reference materials and resources to students."

In 28 Feb 2011, "TAR College Continues to Excel in Professional Accountancy Education with ACCA Platinum Status" from : http://web3.tarc.edu.my/v1/mainweb/events/feb11.htm

"TAR College eligible to be accorded university status" from : http://www.mysinchew.com/node/53934

Heard since long ago that TARC will be upgraded to University status and will start offering degree courses but it seems no further news on it... if yes, what will be its name? UKTAR? lol. or TARUC?

Just a short post for those who are in doubt of choosing TARC as the college for pursuing their tertiary studies. In my opinion, in this case, there are no exact relationship between price and quality. Cheaper fees do not mean low quality.

Actually still find my future quite blur in this accountancy field. Hope that it will become clearer and brighter in the future. :) glad that I'm still studying at low cost currently. *slap myself for actually slashed TARC from the list of colleges one year ago*

;) good luck to those juniors who are worrying about their future.

Bubble liese hair colour : Sweet pink.

2011-03-10T23:10:00.002+08:00

A super duper outdated post. But I still want to post it up because I have nothing better to do? hahaha.

It's y 2nd time using bubble liese hair colour. The very last time was actually using my 2nd sis' glossy brown residue. T.T

Nvm, anyway. Here it goes :D

The leftover after excessive foam being applied on my hair... Can you imagine how much??

RESULTS :

Immediately after rinsing and washing... Looked like it just has brown colour right?

So I went back to KL the next day. Under the daylight it is more obvious and looks better. Pictures Below :

This is ugly and messy just to let you guys see the colour of fringe...

My hair really looks dry after dying it... that's why it called DYE. DIE.

It does have a soft touch of pink on the brown colour hair...

So today, my hair colour had became...

taken after around two months of dyeing my hair. im the centre one. can see the black roots and the colours faded away to brown colour...

Lastly,

Ling and me will make the ending today :D

Cheers!!!!

feel bad.

2011-03-07T22:43:00.001+08:00

Sorry is all I can say. I'm sorry for making you two feel sad or guilty for my stupid act. Regret is the current feeling and now only I realised why people say those teenagers will do stupid acts to attract attention.

Feel so depressed after the call. My heart sank so down down down down now...
immortality and eternalness is something that I'm searching for right now... though I don't understand why these words are created since there are no such thing in this world...

What can I do to make my life live without regret? what can I do?
Life is full with regrets. I realised that I can't give you two money, properties, food, or love to pay back what you two had given out. I can say that I'm forever indebted to you two.

I wish to give everything that I have to fill up the feeling of guilt in my heart...
Sorry dad,
sorry mum.

Then, they will pat on my shoulder.
"Mei Hong, everything will be alright... "

LOVES.

resolution ?

2011-02-25T01:21:00.001+08:00

It is too late to write my new year's resolution now? haha.

I just think of three right now.

This year I must :
1. Drink more water
2. Sleep earlier
3. Try to get to classes and lectures on time.

Whee~ Just because I want to get rid of that dead look from my face. I look dead when I don't have enough sleep especially with those panda eyes...

P/s : I really hate this semester's course works. It gives me darn great headache. I can't control.
and about this semester's results... hmm. what to say. I don't know what to say. I'm happy, but in my opinion I just feel like it's not that important... :O

Stay tuned. Going to upload a review on Bubble Liese Hair Colour : Sweet Pink. ;)

Burlesque .

2011-02-19T23:24:00.002+08:00

Cher looks like Voldemort inside here :X

isn't it? XD

It's a good movie after all, I'm highly recommending, and you shouldn't miss it out!

I like Christina's look inside here. She looks young, definitely, although she already 30 yrs old. Celebrities magic!

LOVE HER BANGS!

and I think I'm in love,

with Cam Gigandet aka Jack.

lol. Just joking, just joking. :P

Just because he looks good inside here and have a man and funny personality. lol. lol. lol.

In conclusion, I can't tear my mind off this movie for some time after watching it, and it's one of the great movie that I've watched, just like Rapunzel, and not those so-so movie like Yogi Bear, or Gulliver's Travels and bla bla bla, and not to mention bad movies like Repo man and Hantu Kak Limah ( i've to search through the movie tickets to remind myself of them )

I'm not a great movie critics or whoever, I'm just continuously seeking for great movies that give me a kind of pleasure and satisfaction after watching it. ;)

I've forgot how to write great blog post. So pardon me!

ouch!

2011-02-15T13:06:00.001+08:00

SEMESTER 3 (short sem) started. It's obviously very very hectic 7 weeks that we need to go through, nothing easy at all... and I feel kinda stressed.

Interest lost from bit to bit , so do the momentum, to study...
and this is only the diploma level...
This semester we have mini thesis to work on. Oh my..

I hope I can handle this well, though may be not. I'm having emotions recently, pardon me my friends.

Baby I am down down down down down~

I still have a lot of pics and posts that I wish to update, but lazy. Holiday is over. But today is a holiday :)
Originally I should come back only later at 4pm something to deal with dirts and dusts in my room. Earlier invasion may not be a bad thing after all.

No dear with me for this year's Valentine's Day.. let's wait next year's!

I miss everything good that happened on me.
I believe they will happen again :)

A Light and easy post.

2011-01-30T16:19:00.003+08:00

A gift from a best best friend :

My dark eye circle still that serious , just look at my 2nd pic.

THEREFORE, I decided to pamper myself a bit.

Woo Yeah! I can't smile with that piece of mask on me. But people always say that you wear a smiling mask in front of the society, isn't it? But this is a not-smiling mask. lol.

I'M STILL ENJOYING MY HOLIDAY!!!

had a great outing yesterday with great guys. ;)
and I had my braces to turn RED again due to CNY! Oh Dear!

10 + 1 + 1 .

2011-01-27T12:10:00.001+08:00

Feel like doing a review on this movie.. hmm.

I watched with peppery dear at KLCC last Sunday. Quite easy to secure a place although we just arrived in time.

The movie focused on the relationship among family, the usual issue that will really touch the deepest part in our heart.
YET, it is a common issue that is used by Singapore's movies and Malaysian's Petronas advertisement which is kinda boring without any new creative idea to touch up the old, common issue.

As we all know our parents will sure turn old, and pass away one unforeseeable date, which is quite heart-wrenching. But it's a fact that we must accept. No matter how hard we try to "appreciate" or "treasure" the moments of time, we sure can't accept that moment that will come in the future.

It's actually a cycle, and what to say? We all will turn old too in the future and it's overall is a kind of sad things. That is what that saddens people's heart.

Anyway, overall the storyline is kinda hanging. They didn't explain clearly to the audience and some no point and useless scenes are being featured just to have a laugh but not really contributing to the whole storyline. Some questions are remained unanswered. They didn't explain that what disease that the Lim father get and in the end did they tell their father about the disease and how they cope with it to live a happy life? They just end with singing and laughing - Happy Ending, and yeah, which is everyone's favourite, But I think it's better to explain how they cope with all those things to live a happier life.

The casts are okay in their acting skills, not too bad, seriously. In fact, it's quite good. :D
What that makes me feel familiar and mesra is those part that they used Malay to converse in some situation :) Yeah it portray the Malaysian's life style.

I personally prefer WooHoo more but it's quite interesting that the Great Day's story is completely different from it.
So here is m opinions and thoughts. Overall it's a worth-watching movies, not too bad, if you look at the good side of this movie.
Take a look at the pics below.

Beautiful girl , Joey. She's talented, cute, lovable, and good in acting, frankly. :)

I'm particularly like this guy from this movie! In fact I like it from the last movie ady. He's just so sporting and I think he already developed that kind of style in front of us :DD

Another cute pic and see. hahahaha!

Wan Wai Fun. Not bad, not bad.

This child also better than some of the adults in acting.

That's the Lim Ah Gong that had breast cancer :)

another cast, Vivian Cheok and her maid, Susanthi are one of my favourites too. They looked natural in expressing themselves and wahlala!

Happy Holiday people!

Jamesee birthday aka little gathering .

2011-01-15T00:04:00.007+08:00

Another late post again! this fella birthday was on last year 28th of December. Although he is elder than us one year but it makes no different for his birthday was so late :P

So we celebrate at Metroview Condominium, being watched by the guard from the up there, staying until 3am something, then went to BRJ mamak to eat supper. =___=

Well overall it's my first time to give surprise like this and I'm glad that it's quite successful! hahaha!

From Secret Recipe.

We gathered at ah Xia's house at around midnight and gave this birthday boy a birthday surprise! Plan successful! Yeah! :D

Eight of us.

Later at the midnight, at Metroview's Swimming poolside :)

And they turn the little gathering into talent show!

Happy 19th Birthday James Koek Tien Hong! ;)

That was a great great night before exam. and we all overnighted at Xia's house. Oh yeah :D

sorry for some blur photos!

click play on the video if you would like to :)

The week of my life.

2011-01-07T02:44:00.003+08:00

1st day : Monday ( 20.12.10)

Went to NZ restaurant that located around KLCC's area. They serve delicious food! Worth Trying!
Later Movie @ Mid Valley : My Soul to take.
- Spooky enough to get me cover my eyes for almost 50% of the movie. Lol. Not to say spooky, but, bloody. :D

2nd Day : Tuesday (21.12.10)

Pavillion! Dined in at Madam Kwan. Food was so-so, quite unreasonable prices but it sure attracts the foreigners. It serves local good food :)
Movie : Hantu Kak Limah Balik Ke Rumah.
- Lololol. What can I say? It's Perak's production and my sisters had an enjoyable time with the movie. While for me? I'm speechless!

3rd Day : Wednesday (22.12.10)

I had class until 4pm and then waited for the hair cut charity event to end. I didn't get any lucky draw prizes! Not good luck enough! :(
Sisters went to Times Square for a massage first, I later met them around at 7.30pm. :)
We went to Kuchai Lama for Korean BBQ. Woo Yeah!
Rice is nice! ( cos I'm a rice lover :9 )
Expenses : RM 100 ++

4th Day : Thursday (23.12.10)

I received a shocking news from one of my closest friends, something that I'd been predicted for, and it really happens! Congratulations!
Chatted in KFC and then late to gather with my sister.
Went to Pavillion again. Visited Cotton On and bought one top :D
Dinnered at a hakka restaurant, Ying Ker Lou.
Food is damn chinese and it's really nice for a chinese like me ;P
Movie : The Vampire Warriors (HK)
- One of the suckest movies that I have ever seen and I think I won't be watching HK movies in the nearest time anymore. All the movie is about showing their fake fangs and hanging wires so that they can float on the air.
Supper had at Station One Cafe. I heard a nice song from a beauty that knows how to play a piano too. Haih.

5th day : Friday ( 24.12.2010 )

Christmas' Eve! Can you see the crowd above? It's a lot of people coming pavillion with the christmas hats on their head.
Movie : Meet The Fockers - Little Fockers.
- So... "I'm watching you, watching me..."
- It's damn funny and interesting enough! Oooh Ben Stiller! Recommended to be watched if you haven't :)
Went to Rainforest Sports Bar at the side of Pavillion. Food is exclusive, and it's Okay too as it was my first time going to a bar =_=
Shisha-ed . ;P
Being sprayed all over my head by those artificial snow when trying to leave the Bukit Bintang area. The place was a mess! Haih. Celebration...
Overnight at eldest sis' place. Had a great night.

6th day : Saturday ( 26.12.10 )

Tried Iranian Food for the first time of my life and notice that they put butter onto their rice and they are really extremely generous over their rice. See the large amount of rice on the plate? and they grill the tomato and chilli too. I ordered Chicken Kebab. Not bad overall. Rice too much only. Heh ;D Been knowing other countries' culture and food is fun.
Movie : Gulliver's Travel.
- Funny enough some part. Overall the movie is quite pointless but it can entertain you. Hah Hah.
Went back to Genting Klang...

7th day : Sunday ( 27.12.10 )

Sis bought today's ETS back to BG at 5.35pm. Sadly I hugged her in front of the train and really feel heavy hearted to say goodbye. I had been spending a colourful week with them. Sigh. When I'm all alone in my room again, I feel loneliness for no doubt. Hope that my 2nd sis can come again next time...

Remarks : Sorry for the super duper late update. I have a lot of super late updates coming too ;D
Can't believe I'm turning 19 officially today. Oh uh. ;) feel grateful. thanks for all the wishes!

Dreams.

2010-12-28T23:55:00.005+08:00

Everyone do have their certain dream, something that they really wish to achieve and after achieving it, only they will consider that they are living their life.

We had a lot of different dreams when we used to be a kid, isn't it? but where did those dreams go when we are slowly adding the number of candles on our cake? In my opinion it's the reality that we realise and face, slowly, during our growth chases our dreams away.

We all fight for our dreams.. if dreams were achieved, people will continue have another dream, and so on, so on. This makes the characteristic of human - NEVER SATISFIED, somebody would say, but for me, this unsatisfaction (correct me if im wrong cos there are red line below the word :P ) of human is the thing that makes human to keep on improving their life, and that is only called - LIFE!

( she's so noisy out there now. brrr -_____- She asked people to shut up and she's making noise out there.)

okay continue my words. Recently the single dream in my heart continue to glow, and it becomes stronger as days pass by. After reading ah yuan's blog post, which she wished to study mass communication, I was triggered to think about my dream also, and my current dream is only to study or work overseas. Yeah I do want it so much. Luckily that TARC do really offer us a pathway to go overseas, although many people would think it doesn't worth it. Well.

Of course, we all do have little dreams and big dreams. Achieving dreams or wishes give us satisfaction and the feeling of, " Yeah, this is life! "

For those who claimed themselves as people who don't have any dreams, well I believe that they may only have not develop one in their mind, or they just think in a passive way that their dreams will never come true, so they will just leave it somewhere in their mind until they vanish themselves.

Okay, you are who you want to be, and you determine your destiny, well, partly of it ;)
Don't feel demotivated when your dream seems to fly away from you, if you believe that it is possible, it will eventually come true too.
We need to dream as one of our source of motivation, a source of life.
Like my dream of studying local universities was shattered too, but now? Bigger and better. :D

Currently my mind isn't that great yet, and aha. ;P

Some people dream of a luxury life, some wanted a perfect life partner, some really want to travel the whole world, etc.

I would like to go somewhere out there too...

Annoying Orange.

2010-12-19T01:46:00.006+08:00

Annoying orange is cute, but not annoying people.

Hey I've changed to orange today ! :D

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year guys.

p/s - edited:

I think there are some misunderstanding outside there.
You remind me of your mistakes when you actually being sensitive about something that I wrote.
But the funny fact is I'm not scolding you. Yes you and you. lol.
How would I so stupid to scold someone in fb if that someone has fb?
So please don't take everything that seriously ok?
I SINCERELY apologise for any miscommunication.

gee, oh d-d-d-dear.

I'd lost faith in it.
and hey, you back-stabbed too! ;)

Ga-ga-ga-ga, Peace yo.

Donated!

2010-12-17T23:47:00.001+08:00

Just to update that I donated RM10 to the A Cut Above charity event today because I suddenly found that I can stand a chance to win a laptop by doing so :P

Initially wanted to donate RM5, but then RM10 instead.

Persuaded Pepper to do the same. :P
Sis aren't convinced.

Way to go a cut above. and Chief of Canteen 2 . :)

Last note : My life just isn't same as theirs. I hope to be independent and create my own way of life too but sometimes I just too tend to being influenced...

Something bad about myself. : Sometimes I just too afraid that people don't know how much effort I've been put our for someone or something..

I slowly find that I can't really be myself at here... It's like either be yourself, who is someone that is not being liked, or be someone else, that people will prefer more.

Which is not myself anymore :(

I miss you at this very moment.

Faults.

Botak or hair.

2010-12-16T19:00:00.003+08:00

Didn't go to college on Monday, while on Tuesday I saw this fun and meaningful event.

" BOTAK WANTED "

is the title that states it all.

It's a donation campaign, for children, organised by Advanced Diploma in Mass Communication Students.. Creative, ya? PR and Media studies students to be precised, already start to organise such events before there are really stepping out to the society to work.

It's all about creativity. It ain't easy to organise such event... so I should say OLA! to them ;D

A PR manager's work are revolving around these kind of things. It seems totally fun, but it isn't simple thing to do, and they even collaborate with A Cut Above to organise such charity event. Heard that before right, babes? ;)

So here are the botak list go... I only attached some that I found interesting or someone I know..

This BONG YANG guy is the first on the list. When I saw this my immediate response was, "Hey, I saw this guy before!" Yeah, saw him before in a church that Esther took me there once. He's a fully Christian, and I believe that his surname is Bong and his name is Yang. Pretty cool right? and see. He's the Head of Department for SWC! That's a very cool title from my view! Leadership, intelligence, social skills... He got it all. That's the person who got a good results in SPM science stream before and decided to study Account in TARC now. President of Management Accounting society, pursuing CIMA... I would like to see him go bald, although I didn't really recognise him or see him in school. hahahaha.

I got his HP number before too, but it's in my lost K770i SE phone. I bet he had already forgotten me also la hahaha.
FAME.

Next to Bong yang is this cool man! Chief of TARC Canteen 2, Mr Law Yao Siong. Hahahahah I never knew he got such position! Sounds yeng! and the very last time I went to have a peek, he's having the highest money raised! and I think I will donate to make him BOTAK also since he is one of the most visible person in college. Ehehehek!

This guy... never saw him, didn't know him either. Just want to say that he is former SSH Sports Director and a PR student and now is in Events & Talents Management, I guess I've been influenced by Hong Kong dramas too much cos these type of position looks fun in the TV!! XD

Here is the only young girl who are willing to go bald for RM 4,500. It's a huge amount anyway.. but it's a courage for a girl to go bald with this amount of money raised.

RM1,000 to shave GOATEE only!! HAHAHA! But I saw this MR before during a lucky draw session. He quite yau yeng :)

MOMO!!! I never been to this seller and neither know the existence of him. But I think it's cool cos they enable to persuade him to go bald for charity! Sporting :D

This is really very cool and I'm going to help with my best.
I bought two tickets to have a hair cut next week by the students from A Cut Above. Okay, I believe in their students for RM10. It isn't always this opportunity flying around. So I pulled my sister along too for the hair cut next week :D

Lastly, here are the information they posted in their facebook page :

" THEY ARE WANTED.... BOTAK OR HAIR!

If you wish to see anyone of these botak 'convicts', donate any amount that you wish so that their minimum targets can be achieved.

Once their targets have been achieved, they will go bald in the name of charity!

So what are you waiting for?

Here is how you can donate: 1. Choose your botak 'convict/convicts' 2. Come to "A Cut Above Charity" from the 20th - 22nd December 2010, 9.30am - 6pm to donate into their respective boxes 3. Wait patiently with hopes that others will donate the same as you too 4. Keep yourself updated with our blog, Twitter and Facebook 5. Attend the final day of "A Cut Above Charity" on 22nd December 2010 at 4pm - 5pm to see if your chosen botak 'convict/convicts' managed to achieve their minimum target to go bald

See you at "A Cut Above Charity"!

Date: 20th - 22nd December 2010
Time: 9.30am - 6pm (hair cutting session with A Cut Above Academy begins at 10am)
Venue: TARCollege Main Hall, KL Main Campus

ALL IN THE NAME OF CHARITY! "

Support them with the full strength of my heart! There is always a better way to do charities ;)
Fun to study in the main campus cos there are always a lot of interesting events and stuffs!

SIEN.

2010-12-13T04:52:00.002+08:00

This is a random blog post for me to SHOUT!

Feels so sien to stuff all those things into my brain. Oh IOM IOM. Because of you I still haven't touch FOA. Still awake at this moment, cos I can't resist to open the laptop.

Dark eye circles are getting more visible each day, that's not the way I want...

Anyway just wanna share this :

" At the end of each day, it is Michelle, her moral voice, her moral centre, that cuts through all the noise in Washington and reminds me why I'm there in the first place. " - Barack Obama.

He is sweet, isn't he?

I respect you, Mr. President.

gonna buy more magazines to read after the tests to pamper myself.. :)

My Changes in 2010.

2010-12-10T20:25:00.004+08:00

It's been a lot of changes to my life, in this year. TAR college isn't in part of my plan initially, and even if it is, I think I won't be end up in Setapak also.

Meeting my dear makes a lot of changes in my life, I won't state each and every of them in here, but people who know me will certainly understand what are those changes.

From A-Level to Diploma in Accounting, this decision of mine isn't easily made. and thanks God I seems to be better off now compared to those days in A-levels. I just saved myself from the rope that almost hang me up there.

For those who don't know how I got into DAC, let's rewind back. At first I was choosing between A-levels and STPM. One of my dream was to study in local universties during the old days, and as you can see, I have a picture of USM at my side bar there. That was my dream, and it's shattered now.

With no doubt, when a dreams start to sparkle, it will slowly glow and become a light that lights constantly. My dreams got bigger, and I even dreamt of studying overseas with my STPM results (if I'm possible to get good one lah.) ;)

Dreams of studying overseas still glowing when I chose to study A-levels, as I knew there was still chances.

I planned to major in Biology, if I have to make choices between Physics and Biology, and if I can drop Chemistry ( I know it's impossible ), I will drop it too. It is just very hard for me to get easy with chemistry, not like most of friends who enjoy it much.

So I planned to become a pharmacist initially, influences by mum and everyone. Hmm, not really what I wanted, but at least it's quite close to my interest, and I don't want to be a doctor, due to my big phobia towards blood.

Okay, so there goes my plans with A-levels. TARC allows us to take all the subjects without any additional charges, not like INTI, giving scholarships for 3 subjects only. Ok, so I was in the science stream for no doubt. I used to claim that I LOVE SCIENCE. Yeah, indeed, I still have my interest towards Biology, now. So I didn't drop any subjects and my dilemma started on the very first week of my college life.

A-levels isn't anything that I'd been imagined. I don't know what A-levels in my thought was, but it seriously looked better than what I was facing. It was so difficult for me to catch up what was the lecturers trying to teach and they seriously teach very fast compared to my secondary school life. So I started to despair. Felt extremely helpless. Not to mention the processes that happened in between, I just phoned up my family and my dear every day and night, reading forums, asking everywhere about changing courses as ACCA in TARC once crossed my mind before.

so I was standing in between Diploma in Accounting and A-levels, and of course A-levels in ARTS too.

I said that if I study A-levels, I must focus on Physics although I don't like it very much, because Engineering is the only future that I have for studying Sciences. I lost confident of Bio-related careers, it isn't that demanding, and not to mention almost quarter of the A-levels students want to study pharmacist.

The outcome is very obvious and visible, I chose Diploma in Accounting. Said bye to A-levels with a big relief and submitted the form to change course in the very last day of application - two weeks after course commencement. Waited for another week for approval, and in the meanwhile, sneaked into DKC and Microeconomics with Ms You was my very first unofficial class. I just sneaked into it. Got the time table from a stranger who was sitting in front of me in canteen 2. Lol. It's like all fated. Why the stranger aren't from Gp. B or C but from Group A? and when I stepped into the lecture hall, it was 3 times bigger than A-levels' DK 1,2,3,4, and the first empty seat that I spotted was the one beside Kong Yong. =)

Feel a bit of regretful that I didn't take a last picture with Hwee Yee, my best mate in A-levels, she also changed her course to A-levels in Arts, a lawyer-to-be. :) And Richie too, Esther, and Hemirni. I was closer to these four people only.

Knew Kong Yong, my first friend, and that explains how I got into DAC group 7 in week # 3. It's all happen miraculously, one thing leads to another, without your conscious, and everything leads to today's Wong Mei Hong. When you realise and start to think back how you actually got into this point, you will stretch a smile because you know everything isn't happen directly.

Making such sudden changes isn't easy, I have to bear all the consequences after all.
1. I need to attend all the replacement classes for NS people ( luckily there are! ).
2. Been struggle for Introduction to Accounting every week until I almost got phobia of the "T" shape for T account. Hard work and efforts seriously a must.
3. Finding group mates for the course works and assignments which never occur in A-levels. Hate it much. I really need to tebalkan my muka to ask everyone about their course works and luckily they are really friendly enough for me to feel comfortable with.
4. Special thanks to Eloise, still remember that she need to rush to Sg Wang to take another pic just because of the new member in her group.
5. Competitions everywhere. When someone feels that a newcomer seems to be out taking them, they start to feel insecure and decided not to give any help needed.
6. I was required to stand tough on my own legs. There was some difficult moments.

Even now I can say that my account base isn't that strong yet.

Hoping and wishing for success in my future. I want to go overseas. Still hoping.

Well this look a bit sad.

This looks better ! :)

And when my dreams really come true,

I will look like Woody in this pic :)

I blogged about this once before too take a look if interested ;)
My Dilemma.

I'll be back.

2010-12-01T20:32:00.006+08:00

Hey guys, this is just a post to say that I'm still here.
I have A LOT of thoughts to share.
But I just fail to spare time to do so.

Laptop is always my best friend and best enemy at the same time.
I can't just pull my face away when I started to stick my face in front of the laptop screen.

Can you believe I stayed up until almost 5am this morning and woke up at 8am?
It's been a long time since I stayed late till like this. It reminds me of my secondary school life... It feels, weird for staying up like this.

After tomorrow's tests, I will need to rush for the ITS assignments too which I am really very headache of.
Friday will be the dead line.
Lecturers are trying to take away our lives.

Yeah, although I know there will sure be a pass of time. Everything will eventually pass and if you didn't do your best, you will feel regretful. There's no turning back for some cases.

I'm a weak person. Notice the shape of my eyes. lol.
People tend to play with emotions.
I get offended easily and sensitive to everything at the same time too.
Nah I don't want to think about these stuffs anymore. College stuffs are enough to crumple my mind.

You can't imagine how hardly can we breathe for this period of time. Some people manage to show cheerful face, and I need to salute to them. College life isn't that flexible, after all. I almost forgot how we had fun during our first semester in the college.

Life is about moving on, anyway. I just kinda get confused of the purpose of studying and the purpose of being a college student. Is studying really the major part of our lives? After all there are so many cases showing that nerds that manage to get perfect grades on their exam transcripts aren't those successful persons out there.

I'm worrying. I might have lost directions somehow.

Please guide me to the right direction.

Untitled.

2010-11-26T22:44:00.002+08:00

Hate that I love them so.

3yrs old: "Mummy, I love you"
10 yrs old:"Mum whatever!"...
16 yrs old:"My Mum is so annoying!"...
18 yrs old:"I wanna leave this house."...
25 yrs old:"Mum, you were right." .........
30 yrs old:"I wanna go back to my Mum's house."...
50 yrs old:"I dont wanna lose my ...Mum."...
70yrs old:"I. would give up EVERYTHING for my Mum to be here with me.."

Meaningful, right? It applies to my daddy too.
I'm 18 yrs old now, but my situation above is from 30 yrs old onwards. Day and night I scared that I will lose my loved ones. Just... love them so much.

2.
Today See Mei asked me, "You like Korean songs meh?"
Just now MM showed me this :

You don't know how the adrenaline in my body rush all over that it sends me into an excited state.
I got extremely excited when I saw these kind of orchestra video. Oh yeah, and envy at the same time :(
That makes me miss my band so much.
I had the same feeling too when I joined and played along with my band during the old days.
Sigh. All the glorious moments like these, behind the scene you don't know how much tears and sweat that they sacrificed in order to produce such kind of results.
I once joined the chinese orchestra society in TAR college too.
But then? Joined one day and decided not to join.
Because I need to practice every Saturday for 6 hours and if I'd master my instrument, I need to join them during wednesday night too.
Too much of commitments, didn't even have enought time to manage my studies.
Plus they really don't encourage us to go back to hometown during Saturdays... and that's why.
Hurm :(
I love playing musical instruments. It's like in my blood and bones ady.
and you can't tell how much I miss my piano now.
But sometimes I just hate it.
I love them but I'm not willing to spare out too much time with them. and luckily I graduated Grade 8 piano.
Just look at my violin. =(
I'm seriously interested in joning the Music2u classes that offers once a week, which teaches you how to play violin/guitar/keyboard/drum.
But then? I still not yet join it even now.
Music just have some kind of STRANGE power. It's just soo strange. Strange. Strange.
Can you imagine a ghost pop out at the cinema screen but without the "thump" voice or whatever kind of music effect?
and won't you feel extra heartbreaks when you listen to sad songs that really "menyayat hati" ?
Feel calm, inspired, when you listen to some kind of instrumental music that made for those feelings.
and etc etc.
=/

3.

So, Korean songs and dramas are one of the things that I hate to love them.
I wonder why it is particularly Koreans, but then? It still belongs to Koreans.
I understand all the time why Mei Mei is crazy over Korean stuffs.
Just that I don't want to be addicted to them also. I know I would if I do more research or listen to more Korean stuffs.
They are just simply tak boleh tahan.
You can't help yourself from falling in love with them. Lol. =D
So here is one of the song that I heard from the orchestra K-pop medley there.
It's called Shock by Beast.
Feel energetic!

and this is just one of the Korean songs!
I still remember that I almost need seductive to help myself from falling in love with T.O.P. from Big Bang.
Their songs just melt my heart easily!!

and not to mention Dramas.
Although it is true that what our IOM lecturer said.
She said : "Korean dramas only have 4 persons acting. 2 boys and 2 girls. Boy A loves Girl A, Boy B Loves Girl A, Girl B loves Boy A, and etc, etc. " =_=
hahahaha how true but it certainly have some kind of power that makes people so crazy of Korean dramas.

and here I end my untitled post today. Hahahahahahaaha.

Sometimes I know that I will fall for something, but then I just hate to fall for them!

Home sick.

2010-11-22T23:23:00.002+08:00

There are so many times that I had fallen sick until there is a label in my blog for sick.

Yeah, I'm having fever and flu, partially because I was bathing freeze cold water for consecutive rainy days.
Tot I was so strong that I can stand, but few days ago when the first sneeze came in and it did not stop, I know trouble is coming. lol.

Today I did really really badly in my FOA course work test.. not to find excuse that I did badly because of my fever, but I think it do affect until certain level somehow... I really hate this feeling of sick. I'm not able to do anything properly. Feeling dizzy and sleepy all the time... I just don't manage to get enough time to rest. :'(

I fall sick almost few times every year, but before this I was in my house and my mum and sis were there to take care of me. Not to mention how much I feel gratitude. and I really miss that now. Having flu and a severe home sick at this very moment. I don't want to go anywhere, sbs night or whatever kind of things.. I just want to go home. ;(

Two days later it will be my mum's birthday. sad that I'm not there to celebrate with her, but I wish that my wishes will reach her. I hope she can have a healthy body all the time.

And yeah, although sometimes, we are annoyed by our parents behaviors and words, that we try to talk back to them and maybe argue with them.
Just did that, and immediately my tears rolled down and I cried.
I know my mum will be very sad when I talk back to her that loudly. I know. Sorry again, mum.

Sometimes we really aren't doing the things that we really want ourselves to do.

I hate feelings. I hate sad stories. I hate separation. I just hate all these things that make us feel sad.
Sometimes I prefer to become a cold-blooded person who don't have any feelings and won't feel sad when anyone you love treat you badly.
But then I soon realised, I will not feel happy too, if I'm living my life without love.

Having a group discussion aka debate tomorrow. I'm still cramming my head on the outline.
I really really HATE this kind of stressful life. It's extremely HECTIC, especially for a sick people like me to catch up.
Can't miss any lectures or tutorials, don't even have time to fall sick!

Next week - two coursework test fall on the same day.
Next next week - Submission of two group assignments.

I WANT TO GO HOME.
For those who are studying now and living in your own home same time. Be gratitude.

But for me, if I wasn't given the chance to come here and try the life as an independent individual, I won't miss home that much too. So it concludes that thing that you once had and you don't have it now, is the most precious thing.

I love my family and my dear. I know there is no immortality. I can't live like this forever, and that makes us to learn how to Move On from time to time... I don't know how I can accept things that will leave me sooner or later, and oh shit, depression is going to haunt me again.

I want to go home.
How many times I've mentioned this? :'(

Photos blogging again.

2010-11-15T22:53:00.003+08:00

Strolling around.

I did this because they said I looked like ~~Grim Reaper~~ with the hood. Rawr!

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Another day,

we are 泼妇。

Went to Mid Valley, bumped into the exhibition centre, and stopped to look at a dancing competition held over there for one hour. :)

Their Kelantan's senior. Woot!

The team that got highest mark. Oh oh latin dance must have the V shape costume for guys. =___="

Candid. Oh no my head looked so botak!

Reflections!

Went to WAN KAT.

Love the Maxi. cos it can cover my gajah leg . LOL.

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Another, Another day,

????

Dearest new question mark. :P

I love good ~~memories~~ moments. But they never, never last. Sobs.